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realization

Quick notes:

1) I've realized I've pretty much given up on having a decent friendship with a particular person (whom I've written about in a few drama-filled entries). It wasn't really conscious. Well...not wholly. After I saw her again 2 weeks ago in Austin and it was super awkward and I was not happy around her, I realized we are too different. Different is not always a bad thing, but it is when it means she is still immature and I have moved so far past that....and now have friends I hold closer to my heart than she can/did ever get. It's a little sad, but that's just what happens sometimes. When something funny happens during my day, she's no longer the first person I think of to tell the story to. To be completely honest, I really never think of her at all these days. She just sent me a text to tell me she's drunk, at a wedding and loves me. And I felt feel no need to respond. It's weird how these things happen. All of a sudden, you just stop caring. I wish her no ill will and don't intend on cutting her out of my life. I just....realize she's no longer as big a part of my life as she used to be.

2) Dammit, I got too into the first thing that I completely forgot the second thing. I'll get back to you on this one.

11:09 p.m. - September 29, 2007

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